and so it goes....

NOTE: okay, i do believe in free speech, but if anyone ever questions my mothering and/or my mothering ablity, you are going to wish you hadn't. if anyone has anything to say about shawty, don't... it will be in your best interest. believe me. kay? good!

now that is out the way....
so, i went to see shawty wednesday,... i'm 21 wks and shawty is looking marvelous. eating, yawning stretching, pushing my intestines and bladder out of the way to make room for its one toe. i stayed strong and resilent agains the pressure of temptation... meaning, i didn't request the knowledge of the sex. God is always on the side of the right. from this point on, it is all about waiting for the arrival.... for the meeting of the eyes when that visual connection is made. nothing is prepared because i really don't know where i'm living... so i have a pile of crap at my mom's house in my old room. when shawty arrives, that will be our room for two wks until i'm good and tired of my mom correcting everything i do. i will then bid her farewell and do things on my own. guy is weakening under the pending arrival... hard ass and so full of it knowing he has never been this in love with anything or anyone as much as he loves this baby. the baby looks just like him... fat cheeks, sizable head, high forehead and those eyes... how can you not love something that so strongly resembels you?

now, i can sense there is going to be some problems with the grandparents. naturally, the baby is going to be closer to its maternal grandparents because that is just how things are. i can see guy getting upset because i'm spending a great deal of time over at my moms with the baby hence hindering bonding time with his mom... i can understand this concern because i would be pissed as well. but i have never raised a child nor has he... being a mom, and a daughter of a mom, i am going to trust my mother's motherly wisdom to help me raise shawty. i don't know his mom like that to sit up under her while she tries to school me. but beleive me, this will be an unfolding saga that i'm not up to deal with now, but when the time comes. i pray God blesses me with patience between now and then. alright, shawty says stay up... and so do i.